February 2011
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January 2011
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Midnight Musings
I like it when a boy tries to give me his food. #1 It means he doesn’t think I’m so obese that I shouldn’t eat (or he’s accepted it..fine either way ^^) and #2 I’ve gathered -from living and eating with them 24/7- that food is literally the most important thing to the male species..and if he wants me, no is making me, to take some of his food, he’s willing to give up his number one priority..for me. :)
This affection can also be attributed to the fact that lately my stomach has been a bottomless PIT :( TOO MANY CALORIES GOING STRAIGHT TO MY BRAIN IT’S NOT MY FAULT!!!
But anyway, today I listened to a lot of people I care deeply deeply about talk about their girl or boy problems. And people always seem to come to me for these things even though everyone knows I’ve never liked anyone enough to have my own relationship. It’s just weird…because hearing all these stories and emotions…makes me terrified to ever take that leap then. These conservations just seem to reaffirm my firm belief that commitment is a terribly scary thing/drag, and romance can’t be that worth it in the long run of achieving aspirations, being the best me, conquering the world etc. But then I think to myself…if all of these people are willing to go through these days or weeks of sadness, it means at one point, it was worth it…really really worth it, right? Well… I don’t know where I’m going with this, which is good since I have a math midterm to sleep for and own tomorrow. I hope my friends are happier, soon, and that maybe, soon too, I’ll fully understand what they’re going through. Because I’ll have found someone whose worth it, instead of just being able to relate through being a big romcom watcher, avid teen novel reader, super duper loser.
And, WHEN that day happens, that boy better give me some of his food. :)
Yesterday was my dad’s birthday and although, he forgot that it was, he sounds well- rested and stronger… so aja aja fighting Daddy! And thank you to all those who continuously keep him in their prayers and keep me strong. Be happy everyone.
Boys at Other School’s :
and im like :
Boys at my school :
and im like:
Not true for ALL the boys I know…but still. LOL.
“I like to see people reunited, maybe that’s a silly thing, but what can I say, I like to see people run into each other, I like the kissing and the crying, I like the impatience, the stories that the mouth can’t tell fast enough, the ears that aren’t big enough, the eyes that can’t take in all of the change, I like the hugging, the bringing together, the end of missing someone.”
—Extremely Loud And Incredibly Close (via casimms)
Hmm the worst part about this quarter’s schedule is that all my meals are at awkward time…but the best part is I have perfect gaps in between classes to visit Preby’s every Monday Wednesday Friday :) so I will do something with this advantage.
super packed day again today but very very pretty weather <3
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