“You’re lovely, but you’re empty,” he went on. “One couldn’t die for you. Of course an ordinary passerby would think my rose looked just like you. But my rose, all on her own, is more important than you altogether, since she’s the one I’ve watered. Since she’s the one I put under glass. Since she’s the one I sheltered behind a screen. Since she’s the one for whom I killed the caterpillars (except for two or three for butterflies). Since’s she the one I listened to when she complained, or when she boasted, or even sometimes when she said nothing at all. Since she’s my rose.”—The Little Prince
Dear, hip-hop.. I’m writing inform you I’m going to have to end our relationship, I know in the beginning I was down to work them hips, but i was tricked. Seduced by your beat, see you had me for three minutes and fourty-six seconds I was suspended in time, but when I snapped out of it I had to ask “did I hear what I though I did in that last rhyme?” Now forgive me, maybe I’m getting old or maybe I’m just slow cause I didn’t know you could say “bitch” on the radio. But I was entranced by that beat I’ve heard somewhere before. Oh, I remember that was the original score. Now unless I’m dreaming I could have swore, right after you called me a “bitch” you called someone else a whore, and at this point I’m trying to process a few things.. What were the original words to that song and you want me to do what with my thong? And I’m trippin’ cause nobody is acting like anything is wrong. After all the anthem for the new millennium was “big pimpin”. And it all seems a bit surreal, cuz when I was dancing around I didn’t know the damage my soul was going to feel. And there are times I’m still compelled to move, but I swear to you it’s that old school groove that plays above the lyrics, becauseif the music wasn’t there I definitely wouldn’t hear it! I thought Hip Hop was supposed to be a means of poetically expressing yourself but it seems these days you’d say anything to get your C.Ds off the shelf. So let’s toast with champagne and good blunts for your health, but first…tell me why?“Every other video, brotha’s gotta be a gigolo” and you show your respect by pouring beer for the homie who’s dead. Then pour the rest of the forty over some females head, and what’s crazier than that she doesn’t seem to mind, but if you look past her ass deep into her eyes you might find, a hint of surprise, cause she didn’t realize, the camera shot would be between her thighs, and she furthers the lie, as she tries to deny, pretending like its okay. As she just gave a piece of her self-esteem away, and it aired nine times on MTV today, and all of that for little to know pay, but “He’s a hustler baby and he told you so, and when he’s through you’re a video ho.” And I’m trying to make it in this business so I’ve stood in those high heel shoes you know? Now, when I go to the club I see a sea of young women with fake diamonds bouncing around their waist with too little clothes on her body and too much make-up on her face singing, “Ándele Ándele mami E.I. E.I. uh oh.” Were you that ho? Was I that ho? Or do we all need to spiritually grow? Does anyone know what E.I E.I. stands for anyway?
The La Jolla Playhouse is one of the top playhouses in the nations for putting out plays such as Jersey Boys and Memphis that make it onto Broadway. I was sitting in the tech rehearsal for the La Jolla Playhouse production of the Little Miss Sunshine Musical and I just got that feeeling. It is different than when I think about law school, but just as strong and overwhelming. It’s a feeling I’ve always ignored, although I’ve always known I shouldn’t, and know that I may potentially regret it for the rest of my life, if I do. LOL Idk, there’s no point in like bitching or whining about how I wish or what could be… all I’m gonna say is that I should, maybe really should consider a minor or make my double major Theatre&Arts. Why? Because people should go after that feeling, if they’re ever lucky enough to feel it.
We’ll see, just thoughts! I want too many things with a passion, but I need only to concentrate on finishing my math homework before the All-Council Mixer& Freshman Council meeting right now.
But yes, watching them perform, no just PRACTICE, what they were going to perform actually took my breath away. ♥ I’m really excited to see the play.
Does not hurt, that the actor who plays Dwayne is hot.
Can’t sleep. Today was a day that there was a crack and the busy-ness and pretending didn’t work so well. And almost everyday, I feel like I’ll never get through this and be the same person again. But fuck you cancer. Fuck you. There’s too much unfinished business for you to get the best of any of us. I can’t and won’t let you take away our time because that’s all we ever needed.
Goodnight world. I’ll wake up better in the morning.